I have always believed in the phrase “I Can” and because of my will power I always change it into “I Did It”. That’s how I have come so far in my life .
When I got pregnant for the second time little I knew that it’s going to be a life changing experience. During my 21st week of pregnancy something happened and I had a miscarriage. I had a lot of blood loss and I was almost losing myself. Somehow doctors revived me and I was saved. As much as it was physical loss, more than that it was an emotional loss for me. When a mother loses her child she always thinks it’s her failure and I also thought in the same way. It was a very uneasy time for me emotionally but I already had a daughter to look after and because of her I was gaining my strength back.
After a few months I was pregnant again and this news was very healing for me but again as I was weak I had to be on complete bed rest. I was not even allowed to visit the washroom. But I was very determined that I wanted this baby anyhow.
My doctors were worried because of my health. By the time I reached my 23rd week of my 3rd pregnancy, I was diabetic and was gaining weight rapidly. By my 6th month, I was almost 76 kgs. I was on insulin thrice a day. I still can’t believe that I used to poke myself 4 times to check my sugar level and inject myself 3 times to take insulin. I am very very scared of injections even today.
After delivery I was 88kgs with no strength in my back and legs. I was totally taken aback when I realised that I was not able to walk. But I had to gain the strength back as I wanted to play with my baby and hold him in my arms.
Gradually, I started my training and fat loss journey. During my fat loss journey when I was 70 kgs I came to know that now I have one more unwanted guest – PCOS. It made my journey troublesome but I was no less. Rigid that I am, with proper nutrition and exercise I reversed my PCOS completely.
Today I am PCOS free and a very healthy and confident woman and a mother of two beautiful kids.
I have written this as I want to tell you all that if a moment ever comes in life that you feel defeated – Always remember the person you wanted to be. Take small and steady steps, maybe you will fail but you will surely learn something from your failure.
Look back, appreciate yourself for becoming the person you are today. Always remember that you are unique and that you will always strive for the best.
